Learning to Trust: A Poem Written by a Foster Child
This poem was written by a young woman in foster care in Clay County who wanted to share her experience.
Social workers grab my hand and take me away
From the first place i thought I was okay
I try to refuse, but get in the car
The worst thing is, it’s just so far
From what I used to call my home
Where I thought it was safe to roam
Never trust again
Throughout the rest of my cheer
Bad news starts to appear
We would never go back to our parents
And my feelings burst out, a strong wave of currents
I told you not to trust again!!
And soon I’m put into another family
But this time I’m happy and I don’t flee
But when it comes to a new school, there is nowhere I belong
Everything I did, just felt so wrong
I have to trust them!!
Not one word to my friends or soon to be family…goodbye
They told me the news and I started to cry
We can’t adopt you they gulped and sighed
My daughter and I were hand in hand, “we are not mad” we replied
Trusting failed again!!!
We go to another FAMILY, now ten kids in all
It was hard to manage and my Daughter had started to fall
Back to the horrible days
All the colors I had earned turned into grays
I'll never trust again!!!!
I also had great depression
But I could hold back my angry aggression
Month after month I started to heal
Which I thought in the beginning was somewhat unreal
Trusting again???!!
Soon it was time to get adopted once more
All hope is in my face, they slam the door
But the news came as an unpleasant surprise
I’ll Never trust again
But just like the others
I was rejected even further
After a few more houses
A woman in glasses
Welcomed me into her lovely home
Trusting again???!!
Soon it was time to get adopted once more
All hope is in my face, they don’t slam the door
But when the news came as a pleasant surprise
Have to trust them?
They have four amazing sons
And who I’m close to, we have lots of fun
Then on my birthday they sat me on the couch
They all look shy and I nervously slouch
Nervous to trust??!!
They show me a video saying
“Will you be a Martin and the baby too” I've been praying
This was the happiest of all my days
A dream come true, a Christmas wish
Whoever knew I could feel like this
I will always trust them!